It remains unknown. But now I am forced to juggle two decisions - doing what is morally right, and follows the standards of the laws, or bending the rules a bit to make sure justice prevails. When my dad was head of the watch, he would tell me about everything he did that was really "out of the box" to get things done. It was fascinating, even when I was young. He had moles, he did some spying himself, he struck deals to bring in bigger bad.. It ultimately resulted in him finishing off the threat of his time, despite being killed in the process. Should I follow in his lead? Try things that are different, and possibly... Illegal..? It might be too late.. I.. Sent in someone to.. I can't even finish the thought.. But this is the only time I will be bending the rules.. I am having trouble sleeping as it is, and I know full well it is due to a guilty conscience. I hate breaking the rules, and this particular instance was too rash for my own good - possibly, just to settle a personal vendetta. A rookie move. I feel stupid.
I need to talk to someone about this.. I need Odall.. His advice is always right, he knows what he's doing.. I don't.. I thought I did, but I definitely bit off more than I could chew. Yes, I have been traine prior for this job, but.. I was not trained for the phycological impairment of constant stress and worry.. Controversy and decision making..Personal Honor, or Civic duty?
