Hello, my friend. I really needed to say simply 'Hello'. So much happens so quickly it seems that nothing stays the same from one day to the next. I had to put a bed in my office, since that is where we live now. Remind me to replace the lock on my cupboard of poisons before the child comes. I can't have him get into that cupboard at all. In addition, I also traveled to Ered Luin, which is why I haven't spoken to you in a little while. I've made it home at least.
Also, I've left the Dawn. It was one of my hardest decisions, but I couldn't handle the threat that working for the Dawn brings when I am going to have a child. But more importantly, I could not handle being punished and not allowed to protect my friends and family. Though I still miss them, I have to keep reminding myself why I left. Like Luc said, I am safer.
Do you want to know what my punishment was? The scar I have to bear for breaking my oath with the Dawn? Well, Hyrien took her dagger from the fire and pressed it to my face. Now I bear a third scar on my face. Ross showed me my own reflection, I've refused to ever look at my own face since I was twelve. But when I asked Ross what I looked like, he took me to the water's edge and showed me my reflection. I didn't know what to think. I didn't have any words, I just splashed the water and went inside. I don't care what I look like. Ross says I am beautiful, but I really do not care anymore. There is enough beauty in the world, my face doesn't have to add to the beautiful things whether it belongs or not.
