After my time up in the Misty Mountain I have not been the same woman that I was before. I have a hard time to feel happiness for a longer time. It feels like I when back without a part of me. Now I don´t feel like a hole person anymore.
The day´s after we return to Bree I always felt I needed to be close to Qswas, I wanted to feel him close to me, feel he´s heartbeat and smell he´s hair. But he was always busy and out for work. I started to get a bad feeling inside me again that I did not know why or how I will get off my chest. I did know he love me but I can´t help feeling why should he not fall in love with someone that is more like him? Why should he stay with a woman like me? I am nothing.
After a talk with him and Rhia at her house I understand that my need of have him close have killed our marriage. He did not feel happy to have me by his side any more. I felt destroyed, I have lost the one that hold me up on my feet. We decided to end the marriage. Maybe he has found someone else, maybe not. It was my fault anyway. I when out for long rides up to mountains and down under ground. I was close many times to end my pain in different ways. But I could not, I have to many friends back in Bree that I can´t leave. I returned to Bree try to act normal even though she know Rhia can read her better than no one. And one day Anadryt and Rhia hand a serious talk with me and they sad I needed to get happy soon. They have been seeing how sad I was and Rhia offered me to join her kinship to work for her as a Woodworker. I felt that if I have something to do I feel better so I accepted her offer.
Today I feel much better. I have more time with Rhia, I always have work to do and I meet a lot of my old friends. I still miss a lot of them and I hope to meet them soon. Now I need to learn to move on and live a normal life.
