A lot have happens this last days. I don´t now where to start really, but it think my darkness started with the man, the mentally ill man that I meet at the Pony. He asked for the way to Scholar's Stair Archives, he seemed like a normal, nice man so I walked him there. When we arrived at the place he apologizes for the trouble and then he hit me in my face, I stumble back a few steps. Now a lethal assault started with beating, kicking and I even got stabbed. He was pushed me down to the ground with all the weight on top of me, he grab my hand and start to scratch in to it, "MOR". I screamed and cried, the pain was horrible. My consciousness start to get weaker and weaker but I heard him speak and screamed at me as he beating me up. "'Mor.... Mor... Mor...", "Morgoth", "My Lord". I have no idea what this means. I had sometime to think, I did feel my life was slowly flowing out of me. I think about all my mistakes, all love and everything I had managed to do. Suddenly he pulled me up in my hair and start to shake me around and then pulled me away. I was so dizzy after the assault so I stopped to fight. He dragged me all the way when he suddenly stopped near the west gate, he made me stand up and then he threw me down aiming for my head to hit a big rock. I fall down in unconsciousness, but just before hitting the rock I did hear some screaming. It was Rothrian and Sigfread. They saved me from the crazy man. Sigfread was taking me on he´s horse and fast to me to he´s home. There he bandage my wounds and took care of me. I remember that when I wake up I saw Zandrianna. Now I am lies in Sigfread´s bed, I am so gratefully for being alive.
After a few day´s I went back to Bree, scared off meeting that man again but I tried to stay near my friend and always near peoples. Then I meet my husband, Naris. He has been out for work all this time. I told him about this and he´s reaction to all this surprised me. He was angry with me. This damaged me even more inside, now I felt like all my life fall apart. I am lucky to have so many good friends, without them I would be dead. I talked to Naris for sometime under this day´s and decides to go different ways. Now I am alone again but that´s may be what I need to be right now.
I talk to Rhianonn and Anadryt about my attacker. They are really upset and worried. They decides I need protection, they should hire some peoples to guard me. I was thinking of have one or two guard. In the end I lost count of all.
In all this darkness some good things happend. Anadryt and Rhianonn did get married. It was wonderfully really. I am so happy for them, I really wish them all luck.
One evening me,Nuburi and Rhianonn was at the pony talking when Fiontann call Rhianonn´s name. She went to him to se what he wanted. Me and Buri still talking and after a time I was introduced to my new guard, Andelin. A handsome, tall man. We talked for a moment, he seems like a funny and good man even if he drinks a lot and have had a lot of women. After a time she decides to take a walk and she tell Buri to wait at the pony for me. So me and Andelin went outside. She just needed air and was going a short walk in Bree. We ended up in Beggar's Alley, I was standing there looking around. I had never been there before and then I heard something and so did Andelin. He started to search the area around us. He did not find anything and we started to walk back. When we reached almost the same place as last time, near the west gate, the man appeared again. He tried to attacked me but I moved away and then took my dagger in my hand and tried to attack him but he blocked it. Andelin grabbed the man and hold on to him, they fight for a moment, then I raised my dagger again and stabbed him. Three times. He falls to the ground. "Master!" "He is here now" he call´s. That made me angry I wanted him to be quiet, so I cut he´s throat and she get blood all over her and he fall´s dead to the ground. The I discovers that Nuburi had followed us. I was in a terrible rage, now I needed to hide the body. Ande grabbed the dead man and we started to walk, then Rothrian showed up. Now I did something I will ever regret, I just told her I will tell her this later and just walked off. I don´t know if I sounded mad at her or not but now she does not talk to me. We dumped that body outside Bree and went back to the pony. I needed to talk to Rothrian. I did not find her. Now my strength started to fail me, I felt dizzy and sick, Ande and Nuburi helped me to lie down to rest.
Now I am sitting her long away from Bree, I left. I did see how many I have hurt and I think I need to find my own way to be a warrior. I will return with strength.
