*The following is written in a shaking scrawl, the writing unlike anything else in the journals. It is splotched in places, the ink run in several areas.*
What have I done? What have I done? How did it come to this? Oh, lords above, what have I done? How could I not see this? How could I not know? Why? Why?
I did this. I did this. It is my fault. Mine and no others. My doing.
Drevorin. Oh Drevorin. Drevorin is dead. Gone. Washed away. I killed him. It was me. How could I? What do I do? What do I do now? Forgive me. Forgive me.
We arrived. He brought me to Eregion. We arrived here, he and I. Together. There was a night, a night when first we came. It was cold. He left me alone. I fell asleep shivering. When I awoke he was holding me. So tender. Cradling my head. So peaceful. So warm. Remember. I must remember how he looked when I awoke. He slept still. His eyes closed, his pain gone. I saw the beauty in him then. I saw beyond his pain. I saw... I saw...
He brought me to the waterfall far to the south. He told me. He told me about it. He told me of the jagged rocks, the multiple drops, the deadly current. He told me as I stood there looking at the roaring water. He told me everything.
He had brought me there to kill me. He had brought me all this way to throw me into the water. He had planned that all along. I knew though. I had suspected. I knew he could not do it. I knew.
I could not look at him. I turned my back. I watched the water. I could not bear to see him. I could not bear to witness his betrayal. I could not. I had not lied to him. He had asked and I had not answered. I had not lied. When we stood on the roof in Bree, when he kissed me, I had not lied. I had feelings for him. I did. I could not watch him now. I could not see him strike the blow. I could not see the look in his eyes.
He told me he was sorry. He apologised to me. He said he was sorry for what he had to do. he was sorry. He was sorry for decieving me. He was sorry for needing to kill me. He was sorry. I forgave him. I forgive him that.
He said he loved me. Then he was gone.
I heard the splash. I saw him float away. I saw him fall. I ran. I ran so fast. I ran along the banks. I tried to find a place I could get to him. I tried, but the water was faster than I. He was pulled away. Pulled away from me. Pulled away from the world. I tried. In the final pool, I tried. I dived in, I tried to find him. Gone. Gone. No more to be.
I watched him die and I could do nothing. I watched him leave me. I could not save him. By Eru, this is my fault!
He could not kill me. He loved me. He loved me, so he killed himself!
What did I do? What have I done?
You said we could be happy together. You said we could start a new life. You lied. You lied and you died for me. I killed you. I am sorry, so, so sorry. Forgive me, Drevorin. Forgive me.
