... secrets kills our happiness ...
What do we know about love? is it thing which we can buy? or is it thing which we can find, discover ... together with our partner. What is love we will ask? ...
... love it's sensibility, love it's consciousness. Loving heart listens life in full, in all people. Loving heart do not confine herself to one person or one thing. Our heart getting hard and see only person or thing of own affection. Loving heart becomes blind. We can love our partner, our friends, our parents, and many other things with same strenght but on different way. Heart full of love stays soft and sensitive. But if we desire to get something, we becames cruell, hard, insensitive. How we can love others. when we need them to own goals? We manipulate them, if we feel that we need them to become happy, we trying use others. We trying find things and find out how to keep others with us. We can't let them be free but only with us isn't? We are not owners of none as we are not belong to none. Love ... it is freedom of you and your partner.
After our meeting, i know that Amorith and me we love each other with a strong flame. But our love is not easy and not simple like some others. In Hall of Fire we heard a happy conversation of couple. If i good remember, they were talking about wedding and childrens ... Andarne was a name of elf who was looking like one from Lorien guards. His lady name ... i do not remember. They were seems very happy.
Somehow me and Amorith, we are happy too, but ... her burden. She doesnt want me follow her and help her with things which she must to do. Im afraid that something or someone trying control her mind and summon her to the place which name she doesnt want to say. She is different ... but i love her for how she is. When i look at her, i feel like i look at the mirror. We are almost the same, without any words we can talk and understand each other. I understand her as i would do the same when i went to Dol Guldur. I would never take her with me ... not allow her to follow me, only to keep her save and far from shadow.
I gave her promise i will not follow her and i will prepare her for her fate as best as i can. But can i prepare someone which i love for journey from which she can never come back? I feel confused, i do not know what to do first time in my life ... what i know is, i will not let her die ...
