15 Lithe ~
I've been walking on air all evening. I saw Gorlen again, he came upon me while I was shopping in the market. He was quite generous to purchase some of the goods but I would not let him pay for it all, though he makes it easy to let him. His charity was quiet and unexpected, though I still have my pride. I find myself drawn to him, I felt so content when he hugged me. It felt right. After being scolded by one of the vendors I took him to a rather secluded area up on the high stairs and it was there where we kissed again. Oh, journal, it was more than just a kiss. It was passion, desire, and such excitement I felt my heart would burst from my chest. I do like him so much and to feel his lips on mine and his hands on my body set me on fire. Of course, that was doused rather quickly when that nosy Watcher Thornroot came by and stuck his nose in our affair. He made Gorlen leave and scolded me to act like more of a lady! Who has time to be a lady when there is life to live! I'm counting the minutes until I am free from work and can see Gorlen again. Just the thought makes me flutter inside.
16 Lithe ~
That brother of mine has stepped over the line! He came to see me as I was going out, that bloody Thornroot blabbed to him about Gorlen and of course, Corrben jumps to the wrong conclusion. Well, he was lead to such and therefore comes to tell me that I can't see Gorlen anymore. How dare he!? Of course, we both know Father would agree and perhaps Mother but I'm grown now. I live on my own and I won't be ordered about like a child. He has this rediculous notion that Gorlen is just using me, we haven't even gone all the way but someone told my brother that he saw me go into the room with Gorlen that night of the 12th. That's a lie! A dirty lie, I left him there, we were both a bit drunk but I was not so drunk that I don't remember. I am not a loose girl and apparently my brother thinks I'm an idiot. I'm so mad right now. I know he does it because he loves me but it's MY life, not his. I had to remind him of that...I might have slipped and punched below the belt from the look on his face but I had to say something! It's not fair, I'm not doing anything wrong.
