Truth be told, I thought I wasn't going to be ready for visitors after what had happened recently. I had planned to stay at home and stay away from Bree for a little while. As much as I had friends there that I cared about like Bryn and Conrob and Aallan, that town held such sad memories. Though I was a bit glad my new friend, Zadian, came by.
The day started out as when I was by the fireplace with Ghost until I heard the door knock. I was confused, not really expecting someone to visit. I opened the door to see Zadian. I haven't really mentioned her before due to the recent events. She was rather a...large woman, her appearance rugged as far as herself and her clothes go. However, she is a nice lady, her profession being one to make armor, even for animals like horses.
Anyways, she saw how tense and tired that I was and asked me if I was alright after I invited her inside. I couldn't bring myself to lie to her that I was fine. I had told her of the events that had happened recently, of how I lost someone precious to me. She gave her condolences to me afterwards. Not wanting to be rude, I offered her some tea that I still had with me. I had gone to get the things needed to make tea before walking back to the room to see Ghost being friendly towards her. She had told me of this white wolf that she had befriended before it had passed away.
As we drank our tea after I poured some into cups, I thanked her since it had been a long while since I had a decent conversation with something happening. We had continued with our conversation. Truth be told, I had realized that I have been gradually relaxing. Though much to my dismay, I nearly broke down again once we had talked about "snobby, rich people" after I made a comment that those who appear rugged are nicer than those that dress up nice. It was because of those people that Agreis was gone today.
To my surprise, she did her best to comfort me, hugging me. As much as she said it was not embarrassing for me to act the way I did and of proper etiquette, I still feel like it was embarrassing. I made myself into this vulnerable state.
Thankfully, she changed the subject to a lighter one, telling me that she had drawn a sketch of armor for Poppy. I doubt it would ever cease to amaze me of what she can do. She offered that if I had any ideas for armor, I would just let her know but I don't know much about it.
We eventually were at a loss for words, not knowing what to talk about. Knowing that I haven't asked her where she had come from, I had done so. She told me that she was from Gondor, Imloth Melui to be exact. She had told me of the place as being a small town though it had its perks of having such good things like beautiful flowering plants and a waterfall. I suggested that if she had wanted, we could travel there since we were going south either way. Though as much as she said that we could and she had planned to travel there, I saw how conflicted she was so I had apologized. She was easily ready to forgive me for not knowing.
I had eventually grown tired so I had offered the guest bedroom to her if she wanted to stay the night, which she had agreed to. Saying our farewells for the night, we both had gone to separate rooms.
Like I said before, I did not expect anyone to come visit. It did help, though, as I had felt more at peace from just the small visit alone. Do I still have that hole in my heart though? I would have to say that I unfortunately do. I believe that it would take a very long while for it to heal. One thing is for sure, however. I have people that care for my well-being. Bryn, Zadian, Conrob, Aallan, Aeru... Were I to have no one at all, I would have easily taken my own life or just throw it away by whatever means possible. Perhaps I will make an attempt to go back to Bree sooner or later. Though for now, I need rest.
