How many people in my life would I lose one way or another? Am I just not fit to have people around me besides those that I can actually trust and work with?
One morning, I woke up to Ghost's presence as he jumped on my bed. I got up and moved to get ready but there was a parcel at my door. I opened up to reveal a letter from Neremnes as well as the dress that I've given her recently. It told that she was going to have to go as she was called to help back south or something. Not only that but that she had gone on to say that she wasn't ready to be in a relationship. Also, she somehow caught wind of me trying to help her finding someone else to tutor her rather than Raven. I was crushed that day and I still am. To me, it felt like things with her had been a lie. The time at the anniversary festival, the times at the inn... The times at my neighborhood. I thought to myself, "Were those memories and thoughts truly real?"
Today, I had gone to the Pony, needing a strong drink. Steven walked up to me and told me about Violet being stabbed. We went outside but there was no body of Violet or the presence of Aeg. We went south, almost towards the homesteads. That was where we saw her body. I say that because... Well... Let's just say that she was with her sister now. I was pissed up to this point. Nothing was ever going right.
We took the body to Bree so we can borrow a cart and items to use for a proper burial. We stopped at the Pony and ran into Kristophor. Well... Literally for me since when I was about to step out, I legit bumped into him. Anyways, Steven got mad and I suppose they got into an argument. I didn't know what was said for a short time as I had stepped outside to wait with the cart. I saw Ithelion just I walked out. Remembering that he was his spouse, I felt angry again and walked past him. The two didn't come out of the inn so I had gone in there. Next thing I know, Kristophor and Steven went to the back. I went to follow because of him being inside the inn. I couldn't bare the sight of him. It reminded me of the troubles that happened because of him. I walked up towards the back but was startled by the door being shut in my face, perhaps accidental. I moved to go into the room and found that they were fighting. Steven explained to him of what happened to Violet and Kristophor... Well, it was like he was having remorse.
Steven and I left him to his thoughts and went to take the cart to the graveyard, the same graveyard that housed my parents and friends and... Well, a loved one. To our surprise, it had started to rain on us, as if the sky was crying. We gave Violet a proper burial in an empty lot, though rather quickly as we had heard the howls of wolves. Steven left the graveyard, having me to take it upon myself to take the cart. I stoppeed to see Kristophor going to the grave and spoke a few words. I think that out of all of us, he seemed to have suffered the most about this death.
Before we left, I had explained to him of why I had been the way I was. He told me that Neremnes did love me and that perhaps someday, she would come back. Part of me doubted that. Part of me believed that it was still a lie. Then, I remembered of what Kristophor and I talked about before.
I came to acceptance of what is expected of me now, not what was expected of me then. I had to press on with my life and work hard to protect those that are still here with us, both known and unknown to me alike, even at the cost of my life. That's my life now.
We continued to talk about our plans as we took the cart back to Bree. I bid him a good night after it was done before going back home.
So now, I'm home. Ghost, of course, went off for who knows what. As much as part of me didn't want to, I burned the letter and the dress. Even the smallest thing would remind me of her and that would kill me. I have to press on with my life and my duty.
