Day 8 / Love does not exist.

[Haradric writing on the eight page]

Something came in my mind today, something I did not even notice now that I see all my promises are in vain. 

Love does not exist. Selfish desires exist. You crave for someone to give you what you want and that is of the touch, that of the many coins one or the other has or simply the reputation that makes you come to join the flock. 

What can you gain from love? A broken heart? The sudden urge for children who will have another need of you? To be fed and crying for protection?

It is a weakness to feel that your heart beats for another but trust me, it does not. Your heart beats for yourself only. It is your mind that tricks you to see that others belong to you and you with them for the reasons listed above. 

Do I look like someone who's heart is now cold because of such a revelation? Perhaps. I do not feel guilt about it. Everything I wrote about the subject, everything I have felt was a craving for another soul. It is a name, 'Love' , I use for something to fill my loneliness while I simply want the presence of another for myself only. 

It is why we become jealous of another, when someone else speaks to your 'lover' because you do not want your 'lover' to leave because of your selfish need that you justify with the word 'Love' but no, you just ache for the repetitive touch. 

Prove me wrong.