I am home again...Or at least back to Imladris where I have spent my time the latest years..I dearly love this place, is nothing as beautiful to wake up in the morning and walk out at the balcony, with the breeze playing in my hair..the fresh air, the sound of the birds singing and the waterfall shining like silver in the distance..and the sun lightens up the surroundings so beautifully. I feel so much at peace and in harmony here.
The latest events and the problems I had with my mother, the trouble my house of Vanimar has caused Earinlin and myself, has made me grow and I feel stronger than ever. For the first time,I feel quite relaxed regarding my relationship with Earinlin. I feel so safe and I really enjoy his company now.
Yesterday when our Tûr Anglachelm gave us our blessings in Halls of Fire, I felt this joy inside me, and all the questions I was asked I answered:...Yes..I said Yes, when Anglachelm asked me if this was what I wanted, I said Yes when Earinlin asked for my hand, I said Yes when my friend asked me if I were happy. I said Yes to everything...And it was all true...
Anglachelm also explained to me how much he cared for me..I have been in his house for many many years now, and Anglachelm have helped me and mentoring me, and guiding me to learn certain customs of his house and it has formed me to the person I am today. He told me he looked at me as his own daughter he said..I was honored and it made sense to me..
Lord Earinlin also wants me to meet his father Elorfin and Earinlin explained to me that his father wants to meet me alone, I fear this meeting, again I will face the strict appearance of a Noldor elf, and based on experiences I cannot say I look forward to it.. I have been a victim of totally ignorance and treated like air by this traditional elders of his kind before.. But it is Earinlin's father and I will meet him.. Even if I fear this, I will do it for Earinlin. I hope his father will see me as the person I am.. A young elven lady, still learning the customs, a lady that lives by heart and that love his son dearly..
