Is being unable to dream and imagine an illness?
Most all I've asked have had dreams. They come when a person sleeps, pictures painted with the mind's eye and odd events take place. Dreams have no logical structure, they follow no rules or reason, they just are. There are good dreams and bad ones, both able to bring out a feeling within a person. Some remember these dreams only briefly, while others remain with them until the end of their days. Why?
I thought of her while I sat at the waterfall. I wanted to see her, but no matter how much I tried to construct her face within my mind's eye, I saw nothing. I never do. Why is it that others are able to form images within their minds with such ease, but I'm not? What has stopped me from being able to? I can remember objects and other things.
Father had no answers and he never questioned it. No experiments were made, no reason given and no answers, it just was and still is.
I'm growing tired of it. I want to experience a dream and I want to be able to build images in my head like others do.
But how?
I'll make note of my routine and practices. When and if I find someone willing to donate their time to my research, I'll be able to compare what I'm doing to what they are doing. It's time that I focus again, put this mind to work, continue my father's work and improve. If this mind eye blindness is an illness, I'll figure out how to cure it.
