I have not picked up this book in over a month. I've thought about it and certainly have had many things to write down, and yet have not found the time or the patience to do so. Sedryn and I are no longer fighting, and have made up. At this point, I feel like h's practically living with me now. I do not complain. It is lonely in the house when he isn't around. It's a big house, far bigger than anything I've ever been used to, and I often wonder why my mother gave it up.
In the time it's been since I've last written, I've grown closer to both Blid and Maddoct. Especially Blid, whom I've grown to hold a very strong fondness and affection for. Blid has told me very troubling news of a friend of his, a girl that I have offered my abilities to. There are many ways I think I could help her, but it seems they have sorted it out themselves. I am not sure, and when I asked, there were other people around. That sort of business is very private, and not something I would discuss while other ears are there to pick it up. And, at the time, Blid was quite a day drunk.
I have learned other things about them too. I have always suspected their fondness for each other, but Blid is far too flustered to spit out that sort of information. And, anyway, it's a very private matter as well, and it's not my business. I do care for both of them, and I want them to be very happy. I don't understand why that happiness can't come when two are together, but I suppose if they are content with the situation then I shall be as well. Blid has also asked me to accompany him to Ost Guruth and requested that we go to Weather Top too. I've already started packing.
When I told Sedryn, I assumed that he knew he was invited. It seemed that he did not, however, and I daresay he almost seemed jealous that I was going with Blid! Jealous of a dwarf, and one who is only my friend at that! I told Sedryn that I loved him a few days ago. It slipped out in conversation with Blid and Maddoct and I thought he hadn't noticed because he hadn't said anything. He brought it up later, though. I feel very at ease whenever I'm with Sedryn, and very comfortable in a way that has been foreign to me for most of my life.
There are more supplies I need to gather to finish packing for the trip. A part of me longs to leave my life behind just for a little while an ask Blid if I can accompany him for the rest of his journey as well. But things are never so easy, and people have work that they must do. That, and I could not leave Sedryn behind and nor could I take him, or else his mother would track me down across the world and have my head.
