From a small cough..

I do not know where to begin.

Silver and I went to see Derny, who'm inquired about the coughing I endured. I admit I am as stubborn as those two are concerned for my well-being. But what Derny said next only stopped heart for both Silver and I. That the blood I cough out could either be this parasite inside me, which she provided potion for.. Or that it is slowly killing me. Such a thought I would try to seize with both hands and rip it out of both our heads. 

I truly hope it is a parasite.. True, it will be painful tomorrow for this potion will see me 'emptied' in quite a way.. Silver has now taken me in and I am too grateful.. But I would do the same for her, if not possible, more.

Thoughts race through mind like other conclusions, other ways that could have prevented this.. But what could? I am but to see what the next days will bring and luckily it won't be alone..

I won't try to hide that I am scared, just.. Afraid if it could be worse than what we hope, that there is truly no hope left. I would not wish this for her, nor for my friends. Vanden and Ida are yet to know about this.. But what about the others? Either struck from this world or disappeared from sight and soon from memory..? 

The coming days will be harsh.. But I will have to go through it, this time, not alone, never alone.