Fortune favours the bold

It is true, fortune has favored the bold, luck will find the unlucky.. I am a bold man, both in speech and of action. But in days past I have been closer to death than one would ever be in.. I felt life fade, I have seen friends look at me with hope yet sadness in their eyes.. 

Yes, I was scared, but I also accepted it. Derny told me that there were three paths I could be sucked into.. The threads of fate spun and wove the one I treaded and it led to be one of still - mind you - painful conclusion. Worms had been inside me, most likely due to my visit in my homeland. They had festered inside and ate me from there.. Horrifying to hear and realize. But thanks to my dearest sister and cherished healer-friend I still reside under the heavens.

I reflect now, in Silver's second favorite chair which I will most hardly be pulled out from, that I have been accepting of it as I wrote earlier, that I tread the Dunes of Passing into the Oasis.. To find my mother and brothers. To ask them forgiveness that I could not save them, that I will never leave again. That I will wait for Silver until it is her time and that we may walk into the horizon beyond.. But no, she waits for Him. Even while I was sick I could feel that Love was giving her even worse.. I pray for His return as I can do but nothing but pull her attention from it, it is all I can do now.

Enough of this. It is my own life I must look up to now. I will wait for none to come sweep me away into life anymore, I will set my own path as I once did, with javelin in hand and with eager intent on what tomorrow will bring..