My thoughts have felt lost recently. The past week or so, I can never seem to find where my mind is. I've been spending a lot of my time by myself lately, venturing out to Far Chetwood to camp by the water and keep to myself, trying to sort out my feelings. I miss Blid and Maddoct more and more each day, and wish they were here for me to talk to and spend time with! My thoughts often wander to Sedrynn whenever I think about them and I wonder where he is and how he's doing.
It seems that I cannot spend time with Caein without arguing with him now. The last time we met he was quite angry with me, I suppose Fenley told him about our meeting a few nights ago, and he got terribly jealous because of it. I'm not sure if we have made up again, I wouldn't be able to say for sure. I can hardly read his emotions whenever we're together, they never make sense to me and he, of course, will never share them with me clearly. I haven't seen him since then, I only keep hoping he'll show up at my doorstep like he usually does.
Fenley is supposed to be making me a few maple shelves for my kitchen. He showed me the sketches of them and I must say that at least on parchment, they are absolutely gorgeous and I can't wait to see them in person. I haven't seen Arthur in a few days, but I've thought about him recently, and hope that he's also doing well. And I hope that he's found a new fancy hat.
