My life was once beautiful. Everything was glamour and glitz, fashion and frivolities. I was a flirt, a manipulator, an innocent. I never left my home. I loved myself, my beauty, my dresses, my parties. Perfection was an understatement. I'm not saying that I was happy, just content in the vain little world that I had created for myself and unwilling to allow a need to let others invade my own private realm of self love. All was well until that fatefull day when my life took a turn for the different and nothing was the same again...
There I was, taken in by the thought of a pretty necklace or trinket and lead astray by Adelainee. She was interesting...she tourtered me in mind and body, broke my spirit and then corrupted me to evil intent. I was her pawn and she was the king, surrounded by a web of pieces. She had me from the first moment she put that blade to my throat and I was fool to even think about denying her. My terror was inconsolable. I didn't speak a word for days in her company. I was a dumb animal against her serpant tongue and she bit the poison of her lies into my very soul, corrupting me from outside and in. Its so easy to look back in hyinsight and think how stupid I was but at the time there was nothing but terror, a need to survive and a need to prove myself to be less of the coward that she was claiming I was.
An idea came next. An idea that was to ruin more lives than I dare to contemplate. I thought I could pull it off you know? I thought I could bring Carlotta down and aid a family rivalry that has spanned generations. I thought I could do it. I couldn't. The execution was flawless I must admit. I had had a good tutor when it comes to deceit and it payed off. I was a champion of lies for a brief moment and I felt the beauty of the lie. I watched as the guards took Carlotta and bought her to the jail. I gabbled when they interigated me, piling lie upon lie on her shoulders. I left to see her locked up in a cage...a childhood rivalry gone riot. I never counted on her friend Sefa acting as she did, taking the punishment for Carlotta in an act of friendship that I would never even have considered. I'm hollow compared to these people...an empty shell of loveless hate, self love, self loathing and jealousy.
Of course when Adelainee learnt that I had failed at my task of getting Carlotta locked away it wasn't long before she had pulled a few strings and got me outlawed in Bree. Life one, ruined! The brief time in jail got Carlotta disowned by her family. Life two, ruined! Carlotta came to rightfully beat me up...I shamed myself with terror once more! How could I have kidded myself that I was brave enough to face her? She could have killed me...I wish she had...Carlotta baled Sefa out of course. She had to creep into Bree in disguise and its all my fault! Two friends who will probably never see each other again and I've ruined that chance! I've ruined everything for so many people! I've disgraced them all...especially myself...
Once there was a beautiful young maid from Bree...now there is a corrupt carcus of a woman who can't touch people's lives without them crumbling around her finger tips...
